Restless

June 16, 2008

 

There are moments in my life that I want to last forever.  I remember times when I didn’t want to get any older, I wished time would just freeze.  But despite all of that there are times when I am anxious for time to roll on faster.  I can’t wait to get married, to have a family and to have a house of our own.  I wish that I could just speed up time until then. 

Sitting in my room one night thoughts like this started to form in my head.  Then a song on the radio that I had never heard before and part of it caught me: 

“You’re gonna miss this/ You’re gonna want this back/ You’re gonna wish these days didn’t go by so fast/  These are some good times so take a good look around/ You may not know it now/ But you’re gonna miss this.”

I’ve thought about it more and more, time flies by, I am gonna miss this.  Yet, even though this one song made me stop and think.  At the root of our restlessness is impatience, but we need to take time and enjoy what’s around us before it’s gone, never to have again.

I can spend my time wishing that school was over, that I had a family, but all that does is breed discontentent and wastes my time.  It can be a nasty habit, but it must be broken.  If I am discontent now, nothing will be different about any other time in my life. 

So, what I need to do is to enjoy those special little moments that life gives me for what they are and not just wish my time away. 

Sorry that this post rambles…it’s just some thoughts that I’ve been having recently.


I Am Not Dead

April 7, 2008

Sorry I haven’t posted – this thing called life got in the way.  I am working on graduatin, getting our house on the market, babysitting and researching.  And I have been writing for many different things including school, my mom, etc.

I have something quick to say about the last item: researching.  I am working on writing a book (which is not all together unusual for me).  A few months ago I was sort of convicted that I needed to write a novel on the Titanic.  Something that showed the truth of the disaster and the aftermath…I don’t know why.  So I have recently began heavily researching for this book.  I would *love* to have it published in 2012 because that is the 100th anniversary of the sinking, but I am afraid that there will be several books coming out on the Titanic that year, but we will see.

Anyway – I am hoping to have some good posts in the next few days.